Life

Life has gotten to a point where I feel like I do the same thing most days. Ever feel like that? Also to where I feel like I get very little accomplished. 

In that vein... I feel like most days with our sweet son are negative. I don't start each day thinking he is on my last nerve, but I end almost every day like that. He has his moments where he is very sweet but he also has a lot of angry moments. He is grinding his teeth constantly right now. This is definitely the greatest source of my frustration right now. I thought when he started doing it (again, you know, not like in his teething days) that he was trying to be funny cause Kaylee was since she was teething. But somehow it has grown into this monstrous thing that he does most of the day every day. Something I will definitely talk to our pediatrician about. And no... we still haven't taken him to the dentist. He is awful for doctors and haircuts, I'm truly terrified to take him to the dentist. But I digress. I think he grinds his teeth when he is concentrating, when he is nervous or anxious, and most definitely when he is mad and upset. There are many days when I wonder if taking naptime away was a good or bad idea. And if there is any correlation to his current behavior issues.

Sunday we had a big meltdown. Brendan got a new Spiderman toy this weekend and he left it lying on the floor. Well, Kaylee, doing what little sisters do best, went and picked it up and it was instantly a baby doll for her (really hysterical to watch by the way). Brendan, doing what big brothers do best, took it from her. I told him to give it back cause we don't take toys from each other. He got very angry and did what I'm now dubbing his angry dance. And for the second time in his life, I sent him to his room. Which means making him go upstairs and putting up the baby gate so he doesn't come right back down. He started bawling and saying please as soon as he heard the "Doc McStuffins" songs on the TV so I let him come back down after being up there for maybe 10 minutes. He's just gotten to point where has to be removed to calm down.

So now for a sweet story so I don't feel like I'm once again dwelling on all the negative stuff he's doing. Doc McStuffins is the kids new favorite show on TV. It has this girl whose nickname is doc because she always fixes everyone's toys. It is a fantastic show that I hope Brendan is picking up stuff from because she is always telling the toys it's ok when they need a checkup and they sing an adorable song before each checkup. And the "patients" always sing a song when Doc makes them feel better at the end. So one day Brendan had a cut or something and Daddy fixed him up. So Brendan starts singing "I feel better, so much better. Thank you Daddy for taking all my ouchies away". I almost started crying. So sweet! Side note: I'm still not sure (after a million viewings) if the song says "ouchies" or "ouches". I love that show and love that both kids love singing along. Makes me happy :-)

A couple of more sweet moments with Brendan: He loves Snow White now. We went to Burger King and got crowns in the kids' meals and I asked him if he wanted to watch a prince movie. So we watched Snow White and halfway through he says "I want to marry a princess". Oh, how my heart melts! The kids have also gotten attached to Apple Jacks so I've started pouring a bowl for them for breakfast each morning. Well, rather than pouring two bowls, I usually just put one out. Brendan is usually the first to grab it but after a gentle warning that he better share with Kaylee, he almost always does. I love hearing him ask "Kaylee, do you want some Apple Jacks?". Sweet big brother :-)

Kaylee is hysterical. She is our little ham right now. She is as happy-go-lucky as a kid should be. She makes us smile and laugh a lot. She makes THE funniest faces and I wish I could capture them all on film. Ever seen that baby on YouTube that will laugh hysterically and then make the meanest face you've ever seen? I've seen Kaylee do that. She won't do it on command like the YouTube baby though, lol. And even though I make her sound like a perfect angel, she does have her share of tantrums and bad moments. Hers usually relate to her being overtired though. She does require her beauty sleep. The one thing getting on my nerves about her at the moment is her crib rail covers. I loved those things when I got them for Brendan. It made him stop making dents in the crib rail from using it as a teething toy. Kaylee, from the time she could stand, discovered that she could pull fuzz from the underneath side of them. I thought it was from a blanket at first but finally saw her do it one night. She constantly has fuzz on her pajamas. I don't want to take them off though in case she decides to use the rail for a teething toy. 

Brendan and I both just celebrated birthdays. He turned 4 and I turned 30. So hard to believe on both counts. My birthday trip to Vegas was awesome. But please, someone explain to me why on earth people take their children to Vegas?! It is quite possibly the worst place to take a child for SO many reasons. I saw so many miserable babies in strollers with pink cheeks cause it was so hot outside. 

A sad week this week cause my Great Aunt Ruby died on Saturday. Me, Mom, Shannon, and Matthew are flying to Arkansas for the funeral, flying up one day and flying back the next. My poor kiddos are gonna be very confused with me being gone again. Ruby was the last blood-related grandmother figure in my life. Looking forward to seeing family, even if it is under grim circumstances. I see that part of the family so rarely. Really glad we got to visit Ruby last summer and she got to meet our kids.